hearts on loose.
Sunday, November 15, 2009, 11:15 PM
Reality check
A conversation made me realise several things. Number one: I've really got no talent - that the things i do are basically just passion without potential. I sing, but it's nothing special enough to a singer. I run, but ain't fast enough to be a runner. I bake, but it's never good enough to be considered as a good cook. Number two: Talents need not be things that we do, rather it's the things that we are. Sounds pretty logical eh? But number three: I complain too much. Sometimes i feel like i am like this when i'm with some people, and like that when i'm with another. K this sounds all so complicated but you don't have to understand as long as i do. Accepting someone for who they are can be a talent. But honestly? It takes a lot to accept someone completely. I'd be a big fat liar if i could tell you straight in the eye that i've never despised someone for the flaws they have. K perhaps despise is too strong a word to use, but there's always just this feeling of comparison everytime i see someone less than normal or someone who isn't like me or someone who's just completely annoying. Gosh, i hate it when i gossip and bitch about all the shit in the world. And honestly i really want to stop, but trust me when i say it's more than just difficult. Then again, here's number four: i should never doubt what God has placed into my life. Perhaps to many people i'm the reason why they never believed in God and this whole christianity thing - because i'm a bad testimony of it all. But when i say i'm christian, i don't mean that i'm perfect, holy and of higher status that anyone else out there. It just means that i admit i'm a sinner and all my flaws all too visible, yet He's the only one who will love me despite all that. Which reminds me that i've got to get my whole confidence and trust back on track. Cos it is the little things that He has put inside of me that i have to let it grow. And to quote mr flying man, WITH GOD ON MY SIDE I BELIEVE I CAN FLY. :)Chalet tomorrow, i cannot wait goodbye!
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Charmaine is God's Child.
(I am far from perfect. But i will be perfect for that imperfect someone who is perfect for me.)
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"Above all else, guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life."
-Proverbs 3:12