hearts on loose.
Sunday, September 28, 2008, 12:31 AM
Apathetic
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ♥Neither smart or cool or pretty enough.
POA P2 down, EL P2 down.
Skipped the vocab part and had forgotten to go back to do it, 5 marks gone.
Both papers pretty much manageable though.
"We love because He first loved us."1 John 4:19
Was intending to walk home tonight, to have a glimpse of those bright stars, but Mum offered to pick me up from Clementi instead.
Anyhow, today was the last week we're talking about BGR(Boy-Girl Responsibilities). Matt covered how God loves and how we should love like He does. Many a time i can't make myself forgive others for the things they do to me. Well, most people can't and i'm definitely one of those who try so hard but end up failing miserably. But think about it, if God was still able to love us despite the fact that He was suffering those physical pain and torture just before being crucified, how can we not love? I ought to apologise to all the people i've judged. It's so hard not to succumb to the earthly sins and works of the world. Really hard i swear. That was another reason why i couldn't make myself accept the altar call again today. I want to give it all up to Him and let Him take away those excruciating pain i've keep inside for like how long already. But then again, i don't think i'm worthy enough of His love. Matt too shared a story about Jesus coming to knock on our door one day and how we let him in and stay put at our place permanently. The story develops when some 'friends', satan/evil/worldly temptations/etc, finds its way to stay in as well. We tend lock up Jesus in a room as time passes and only to find ourselves only to Him whenever we walk past that room. Indeed, i could just imagine myself being that lead actress and Jesus being hidden in some corner of my heart.
So I lift my eyes to You, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears
In Your name i pray, Amen.
Charmaine is God's Child.
(I am far from perfect. But i will be perfect for that imperfect someone who is perfect for me.)
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"Above all else, guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life."
-Proverbs 3:12