hearts on loose.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008, 9:11 PM
Stardust
Probably you can never tell, ♥
Perhaps the only thing that will work now, is prayer.
Perhaps the only thing that will work now, is prayer.
Happy 15th, Syah! ♥I thank you for your words of encouragement that helped me to stand up, face reality, think through things and smile again. You're someone i really look up to. Your independence and attitude towards others really make me wanna reflect on myself. Thank you, for everything these 10 months. I love you v much and i really do mean it.
xoxo always and forever, me.
I overslept and missed the craziness(or maybe not) of the last day of school today. Felt pretty bad for failing to meet up with JustinKwj for breakfast before heading to school together, leaving BFF in school by herself, not celebrating Syah's birthday with her in school and simply staring at the laptop screen for the whole day.
I don't know why i'm feeling like this. Thought i got over it. It's just a matter of time, no? I try so hard, but it seems like thinking of you is just an inevitable thing to do. Don't you know how many people are worried about you? It flickered on and off ever since the beginning of this year. Those questions i can never get an answer to are the questions i ask myself all the time and the answers i'm dying to find out. Ugly hearts, selfish desires, pressure. Perhaps i'll never know what you're going through right now. But you have never told me anything, so how am i supposed to know? Misunderstanding and mistake, very big words indeed. Tears filling up my eyes. I can't go on like this. I don't wanna do this anymore. Dear God, let everything start over, please?
Mess.
Please, don't ask.
Labels: birthday, school/friends, thoughts
Charmaine is God's Child.
(I am far from perfect. But i will be perfect for that imperfect someone who is perfect for me.)
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"Above all else, guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life."
-Proverbs 3:12