hearts on loose.
Friday, January 02, 2009, 10:23 PM
One Thing
"God isn't asking us to fully understand, but instead, for our full obedience."So i welcomed 2009 with a light heart, and i'm thankful for it. Though i may never understand why He would allow such a thing like this to happen to His beloved child, i know that ultimately, He still has the best plan for me. And that, should be more than anything i could ever ask for.
To be honest, it's still a hard fact to swallow. I never fully understood the reason to many things that took place in my life, majority of which i didn't even want to appear in the history of my life. Charlotte shared at the group three meetup on the 30th saying that 'letting go' and 'giving up' are two separate issues. I was initially pretty much eager to leave as i had a splitting headache and had actually forced myself to be present at that meetup. Despite having a tough day and almost obviously looking moodless, i was anticipating what she had to say. And so she said, letting go is about letting God take control of that thing you're trying so hard to hold onto. On the other hand, giving up is simply throwing that thing aside, not wanting anyone to offer you any help and having that i-don't-want-to-care-anymore attitude. Her words kept playing over again in my head like a spoilt recorder. So am i letting go or giving up on _?
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Anyway, here's about my first day of school:
i. The school looks sad and abandoned.
ii. Teachers claim the upgrading works would be completed soon, i laugh it off.
iii. Miss Ho is no longer our Math teacher, but she's Belvedere's House Mistress.
iv. I miss Best and SSW. :(
v. Poppins are not gonna have packed lunch for recess, we're gonna have a picnic.
To sum it all up, i still can't believe i'm a Secondary Four student, getting the O Level F&N Coursework Part A question a week(or less), turning sixteen in four months, sitting for the O Level MT paper in half a year and facing the giant with the rest of the country in the Sep-Nov period.
Oh how cool is that.
Labels: Jesus, school/friends, thoughts
Charmaine is God's Child.
(I am far from perfect. But i will be perfect for that imperfect someone who is perfect for me.)
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"Above all else, guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life."
-Proverbs 3:12