hearts on loose.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008, 11:07 PM
Numb
Jesus take the wheel,Cause I can't do this on my own.
This is driving me crazy.
I can't do this anymore. Honestly i feel like my heart stopped beating, my brain stopped thinking, my lungs ain't producing anymore oxygen. Can't you tell? I'm dying. I'm dying to breathe. Screaming for air. Still, would you ever turn back? Well i swear you stopped caring. Run away with my heart, run away with my hope, run away with my love? Everything seemed to come rushing against me. Time just enjoy playing a trick on me. I feel like a toy some kid loved so much in the beginning then stopped playing with after some time. No one likes the feeling of disappointment, do they? Responsibilities. It's not like i don't wanna do it alright. So you think i'm like superman make sure everything's ok at the end of the day? Face it, i can't. I'm sick and tired of being the one who cares or rather the one that cares too much. Everyone else sits back, relaxes, thinks about the awesome plan and leaves everything in my hands. When i'm the one here that is slogging my guts out just to make this awesome plan work. Perfectionist, some would say. But i beg to differ. All i ask for is something simple to work out, no? Dammit, i hate feeling like this. I can't take this. I won't take this. I can't do it. I won't do it. Still, i can't help it. :'(
go easy on it please, says 'fragile'.Labels: thoughts
Charmaine is God's Child.
(I am far from perfect. But i will be perfect for that imperfect someone who is perfect for me.)
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"Above all else, guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life."
-Proverbs 3:12