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Friday, December 12, 2008, 10:58 PM
Breakthrough
What is it that softens all my doubting? It's you.Cos you made me new.
"Breakthrough is a time whereby God changes you. For breakthrough to take place, God must be in the equation."I attended this breakthrough retreat without much expectations, went through it with much heart-wrenching sessions and finished it well. I had a breakthrough.
I remember screaming so much every time the curtain opens up. I remember Ginny being so hyperactive when majority of the rest were dead tired in the morning. We all had a great time laughing till our jaw/cheeks hurt, didn't we? (or maybe not hahaha) Tea break after all the games + vocal exercises(somewhat) was superb. The box of sugar donuts disappeared in a blink of an eye heh. I had three! :D Ate to our heart's content followed by a time of worship. Little did we know, things slowly started to settle down, our hearts too, slowly started to open up.
Surprises. Indeed, this camp was filled with many pleasant surprises, of which the five senses commitee members knew/could have guessed more than half of them heh. Still, i must say the guys did a fantastic job of making everyone on the bus go "omg why do i see the guys?!", wow-ed us with roses on our beds made of bed lining/blankets + personalized cards + ferreo rocher + a super cute soft toy each from ikea, prepared good barbecued food for us and even made sure everyone ate before they helped themselves to the food. I guess this is what it meant by honouring your fellow brothers and sisters-in-Christ. Not putting them down like they are already not down enough. I thank you guys from the bottom of my heart: You guys are really sweet.
Insecurities/insignificance. I think God spoke right into my heart when Valerie spoke about this on the second day. It's something i hid in the corner of my heart and never ever wanted anyone to mention about. Still, He made all these possible. Sometimes it's just so difficult to deal with those negative voices ringing in your mind. It just won't stop bugging you. But above all this, i'll just have to keep reminding myself and with the help of that someone special, understand a simple fact. Jesus knows.
i. WWJD - Walking With Jesus Daily.
ii. Suffering is necessary in the Christian walk. It helps you to grow up.
iii. Don't live on borrowed faith.
iv. QT is not homework for God, QT is spending time with God.
v. Be authentic, for God sees the real heart.
I guess there's much more i learnt during the GBT. However though, some things are far too personal and no matter how hard i keep editing those sentences it still sounds the same to me. Oh well, perhaps i should consider moving to livejournal or xanga(for good). Or even post on a private journal for my eyes to see only.
Four albums worth of pictures taken at the retreat has already been uploaded to Facebook. Go grab them if you want to.
PS: My heart is a home for You.
Charmaine is God's Child.
(I am far from perfect. But i will be perfect for that imperfect someone who is perfect for me.)
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"Above all else, guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life."
-Proverbs 3:12